my ex..

Here i am
Wondering why im still here
I try not to think about him
Tear after tear

He meant so much
Im still here...
Wondering why im all alone
I just wanted that one touch
Just wanted him to be near

He left me..
Im blind...still cant see
It must of been somthing that i did
He just wanted to get rid....
Of me

We promised things
I guess it didnt mean much
Love...romance...rings
I just wanted that one touch

I feel myself falling..
Im scared...i cant get up
No matter what happens...i cant stop bawling

Everything reminds me
I loved him with all my heart
Im blind...still cant see
Now we are apart

He's gone for good
No more saying I love u
I just wish i could....
Say it was true

All my dreams and wishes
Left falling...
Just like me...
It feels like i'm crawling

It hurts so much
Why did u have to pick me
I just wanted 1 touch...
I can leave...not come back..
Ull see

Life isnt worth living anymore
I never loved anyone as much as you
Im so hurt...so sore
I just wanted to say I do

He blames it on me..
U could of had anyone
U got anyone u want....just pick...
U'll see
Why did u have to pick me

I know how u felt
U left me...
Forgetting all of the promises
You were best off with me...
One day u'll see.

I loved u
Went through thick and thin
I get repaid by being hurt
I hope ur happy....
U succeeded

Cleanse The Blood Father..

I dont know y...its been in me since pass few months.
The nite we fire each other in icq.

On Jun 6 2004 12.21am : ( This is the last msg he gave me in ICQ )
MyFRD : eh watever u're going into my ignore list i dont wanna hear from u again..

Yet today I just wana break the ice..I dont wan to go on like that. We used to chat alot...he used to make me laugh, joke with me and also lecture me whenever he feels its not rite. He has been a great frd...I guess I really slapped myself hard this time. He meant it afterall.

(pray: father..im sad that this frdship ended up like because of my emotions and anger tat nite...i have no right to ask for forgivness from him...i shldnt have behave like that...but father pls forgive me...bless him with good health and speedy recovery...Amen)

(nick have been changed)
iguvert: MyFRD
iguvert: can we talk
MyFRD: ya
iguvert: bz huh?
MyFRD: not exactly
iguvert: ok
iguvert: i wana say im sorry to u
iguvert: for that time tat i made u so angry
iguvert: im sorry
iguvert: can we still be frds?
iguvert: i treasure this frdship
MyFRD: sure...still friends
MyFRD: but things will never the same
iguvert: wat do u mean
MyFRD: got bad blood already so things wont be the same
iguvert: ..
iguvert: bad blood
MyFRD: dont u think so?
iguvert: MyFRD
iguvert: u tell me better
MyFRD: tell u waT?
iguvert: anyone: dont u think so? --->
iguvert: anyone: dont u think so? ---> this
MyFRD: bad blood meaning got bad memories of the past
iguvert: ok
MyFRD: so ya..can still tok but things wont be the same
iguvert: ok
iguvert: i understand
iguvert: i have nothing to say liao
MyFRD: ok
iguvert: saying sorry because i really felt that im in the wrong...i never tot of any bad blood thingy...
MyFRD: i dont wanna go thru that sorta thing again so u can share ur inner most emotions with someone else
iguvert: ok
iguvert: i get it
MyFRD: thank u
iguvert: thank u too MyFRD

~~~God Bless you MyFRD~~~